♥ Hate

"K la to be honest, I know you're fat from the start, so I just plan to pakai you. But I don't have the heart to do so. Heh . And takyalah mati kan me on Twitter, nak call je. Besides, you're the only girl I talk to that way. (rude way, that is) Sayang I tak? Hahaha. I'm already with someone else even when I first started talking to you. Hee. And I have to admit you're the sweetest with the constant goodnight texts and all. But still, you're too big. Bye ;D"

-A fellow ex date texted me this.

I had posted this at Facebook at first, but decided to delete it later on because I don't want people to think I'm asking for sympathy when I actually really would like to share that these kind of assholes still exists.

What was my whole fault in this whole thing? BEING FAT. _|_

He had apologised but my trust for him right now? Negative 0.

I do not even think it's sincere. He never was as a person to me anyway.

I had doubted him from the start. I knew something was wrong.

Yes, he is the one whom I've ever blogged about who looked down on me who had a bad past (tattoos etc.) Refer to post, 29 November 2011.

He's angry with what he saw on my Twitter. That my friends called him a pussy.

He haven't seen the worse in Facebook where so many more said much more meaner things.

But with him being such an asshole, hello? 

You cannot even accept all these dissing?

Use your brain ah. Imagine if it was your girl bestfriends or sister or girlfriend who got dissed this way by a guy? You, as a friend, would definitely comfort her and not like him right and say all those things.

Sial lah, bedek ah kalau kau tak akan have even the slightest reaction!

 So, I find the fact that he even wanna pick a fight with my friend, is rubbish.

Which friend can tolerate seeing a friend being hurt this way?

HELLO, my heart is not made of stone.

You want to pick a fight with people who care for me when I get dissed that way by YOU? Haha.

First, he tried to force me to get a 90 bucks perfume. In which, he failed because I had a feeling all he was contacting me for was the present. I stopped answering his calls and texts. Honestly turned off already. "Token of appreciation" that he was contacting me because I am big sized, he said.

Recently, he kept asking to call and finally I gave in to one call. It was alright at first.

But he suddenly started talking about his present again.

I told him straight up, I didn't get anything. Whatever for anyway? We lost contact already and he don't even deserve anything from me. Aku selenger ah tapi aku ada otak eh tolong ah. Next, he was psycho-ing me to dance with him on his birthday. I refused. I don't get the idea of dancing with guys in the club unless you're my close close friend or ex. "Ala joget, raba raba then dah uh." I was like whaaaaa-t? Then he said, kidding. Fine.

 The next thing I knew, he was telling me to choose, dance with him in the club or meet him and let him kiss me. "It's not like I'm gonna fuck you what." he said further.

I was ultimately turned off by then. I chose none of course. As I put down the phone, my anger built up.

What, first he couldn't get my money, now he wants to get a feel of my body.

My thinking? First he thinks I'm stupid, next he thinks I'm cheap?

Yes, I have tattoos and whatever shit ass past, but I'm not as low life as you think K.

I do not even dance with guys in the club.

I have phobia of guys getting close to me.

I have feelings, I have a brain and I have a heart just like any other girl.

If one day, should you get a child and that child has tattoos, feel what I feel ok.

I'm not cursing. Just giving a WHAT IF situation.

All these shit stereotyping of people with tattoos has got to fucking stop.

I have tattoos but I do remember my religion all the time.

Do not doubt me when I say "Insya Allah, Alhamdulilah" or anything else. (He say I macam faham)

I know myself what I believe in, who.

If you feel that you're right, so be it.

You asked for my forgiveness. I shall forgive, soon. But I never ever want to ever cross paths with you.

So, I just would like to share this experience with my fellow readers.

Identity of jerk shall not be revealed.

Have a good day readers ♥