♥ Don't you remember

When will I see you again, you left with no goodbye, not a single a word was said.

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness and a wandering eye and a heaviness in my head.

But don't you remember, don't you remember the reason you loved me before. Please remember me once more.

When was the last time you thought of me or have you completely erased me from your memory?

And, lately, I've been thinking about Moonboy a lot.

Yes, it's totally pointless now since it's too late.

But I can't help my thoughts. I keep thinking about him, keep missing him.

Keep thinking about how unfair it is that I can't remain even friends with him anymore.

And I guess, that's because his girlfriend is insecure as he had loved me before after all.

But, sigh, he's in love with her now right, I'm no longer in his heart so why worry, sigh.

He had since then, deleted me off Facebook, unfollowed me on Twitter, and deleted my pictures and number. For someone who used to love me and was always there for me, I took this change quite harshly at first.  But, he told me to understand his girlfriend's feelings, jealousy and insecurity. And well, I tried. I backed off. But sometimes, I just can't help but still call him whenever I get a little too drunk, because that's just how it used to be. He would listen to my endless yapping till I feel tired enough. But he never answers my calls anymore. And this, I should understand too.

I understand everything. But I just at least wished that he didn't have to disappear totally from my life like this. He said that he would forever love me, even if just as a friend. What happened to that? I knew it, I knew that forever didn't exist. I just miss him. Him asking, how my day went, telling me about his day, cursing each other, and how he'd always laugh at my slengerness. All that's gone. And so is our friendship I guess. I sent him a long text to tell him how I feel about him being gone, but even that went unanswered. He's still in contact with others, except me. It's as though it's my fault that he have loved me before. I'll just have to get used to this I guess. I'm not surprised if I get their wedding invitation soon enough, because they look quite serious together. And I know he's not one to kid around in a relationship and I can tell how much he loves her now. In this, I have lost a very good friend..................... But it's alright.

I just hope maybe one day I'll get to meet him again,just to give him a big friendly hug,wish him a final goodbye, and then we'll lead our separate lives. 

Insya' Allah.

And this counts as the 5th post of you.

♥ Missing school

Hi.

Lately, I've been missing school a lot.

Like, a lot.

My school best girls, classes and just, my classmates.

Everything about school.

I miss Ella, Feeqa, Nuyun and Ifah.

Our endless chatters, skipping of classes together, forever going to Cafe to eat.

Sigh miss everything. Never thought that I'd miss school so much.

♥ Miffymiffu

Hi Muhammad Mifdhal. 

Do you know that I've missed you terribly?

So so so so much.

♥ Great night

HI EVERYBODY!

Yes I am in a good mood I guess.

I had a great night with my lovely girls.

Also with Acap, Ahlep, Firdan and Iforgothisname.

Me and my girls had a beach evening out first.

Had a funny "swim" for only FIVE minutes. Hahaha.

But us laying on the sand, watching the sunset and sky together, listening to music and just talking was just sweet. After which, we showered and got ready to party at St. James.

Sunny and I are officially over I guess after 2 months.

He really cannot adapt to my partying ways.

He hates it so much and I couldn't change his mind.

He loves me but he hates the fact that I party just so much.

He will only take me back once I quit partying.

So I guess, that's the end of us.

A case of lovers that just can't be together I guess.

:)

♥ BACK

Hi! I'm back for an update. 

A long update I guess.

I have been away because.....I've started working!

At Screening Room, Tanjong Pagar there. I'm working at the bar, while Shaa's working at the restaurant section. Farrera's working now too, at Nuoh Orchard Central.

Work's been fine I guess. Still need time to adapt. Still so uncomfortable and awkward with the colleagues. I have a 6 days working week. And yes I came home early today as I was feeling unwell.

Work's really tiring and it's taking up much of my time, I really miss school.

I end work earliest 2am, latest 4am. HOW LIKE THAT.

But nevermind that aside.

I requested for an offday on Saturday.

So inital plan was to party at Avalon. But sadly, entry wasn't granted le sigh.

So, we parted ways with the others and it was just us and the boys.

Drink, drank, drunk, BONDING. So glad we finally had our bonding session after so long.

Though it would have been perfect with Min and Yana around.

And of course lots of walking, which is standard uh if we're with the boys.

So here goes!

Oh yes, we joined forces with Sunny's and Ayie's friends.

Found myself getting back with Sunny somehow.

Pictures aren't in order.

This is Zick.

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Zico.

The walk from MBS to Clarke Quay.

MBS.

Clarke Quay

Mif, Farix, Fred, Sunny, Apiz

Sunny and Apiz

Ayie and Shaa

That's Tiger.

Other Avalon nights, sigh bye bye Avalon :')

This was Butter Factory.

And this was at Shake Club.

I remember this night where you put my head on your shoulder, stroked my hair and just listened to me cry. It was also the last night we really really saw each other. Sigh. I hate what's happened to us. I love you and I miss you so much bestfriend.

http://razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/currentaffairs/75454.html
Oh yes, that's the link to this Razor TV video that me and Farrera are in. WE SOUND STUPID HAHAHAHAHA because it was totally unexpected and shocking lah walaoey. I don't even know what came out from my mouth, it just did LOL. "Just look at the guy and shout ah" ZIRAH WTF. HAHAHA.

DONE! Good night!

Back to work tomorrow.