♥ Count on me

Hi!

Finally an off day and an official rest day for myself.

Had an off on Wednesday but it didn't feel like off at all because I still had reporting to do.

And yesterday was my course interview @ ITE CCK.

It's a fucking long journey but yknow what, maybe the change of environment would do me good.

Off to the West side now! Hahaha.

Work has been so tiring especially with the use of heels.

I can never get why women love heels please.

Everytime I see women wear ridiculous heels I just wonder how they walk in em.

My heels aren't that high for work but.. Gosh. By the end of my workday, I was limping.

Can't stand the pain.

So I've met difficult customers and really friendly ones!

And a few helpful colleagues and not forgetting 2 bitchy ones.

So after work, Katek came over my house and we had a drink.

Well,the boy's heartbroken so I offered to be there for him.

And I'll be meeting this girl today, Insya Allah. It's been ages.

I thought she forget me for awhile. Heh :P

Ever had the feeling where you suddenly go all sad?

And you can't find the reason why?

You just.. feel.. so.. sad.. All of a sudden.

♥ Tired of work

Haaaaaai baby.

So! It's only been what.. 2 days since I started working but I'm already bored with work.

I prefer lazing around at home lah please.

Why am I not born with a silver spoooon!?

Work has been alright actually, just that I here, is a lazy ass.

And I here, haz gotz no taimz fo me zelf.

Sedih tau! Boring tau!

So maybe the ex-boyfriend Yuri will be dropping by my workplace tomorrow and I will be in his X's and O's! Haha k not. Just the O's. Gila kah, marah nanti seorang itu. Anyways, meeting him would be different as normally we would meet up with Shaa and Skit around. But sadly only two of us is left that is outside. Grrrr.

Just now, went to visit my baby. Here's a video of her.

Cute kan die? I'm so happy to get to meet her everytime okay.

Can't wait can't wait for her to get out!

Okay working tomorrow, birthday coming soon!

Hehehe. Update again soon! xx

♥ First day of work

I cut my hair.

Because of the new year, new school and new job.

Yesterday was a full day with Khai Mang.

He was late, as always and we headed to ITE Simei first.

Bad service there I swear. So Imma try out ITE CCK soon.

Confirmed work @ Somerset and from there, Mang and I walked around Town.

It's been a while since I've Towned so, it was worthwhile.

We walked and windowshopped till our legs get too tired.

While getting a drink from Mcafe, I saw Jaja and said my hi byes.

Mang then treated me to dinner @ Sakura, talked about so many things.

We went to check out my new workplace and I found it okayokay alright lah.

Back to Simei and met Ayie.

And then I went home, when it was time~

Oh I surely miss the old times.

Nightlife oh nightlife, wait for me k?

Shaa and I, will be back!

Oh, and I was just kidding about the hair! HAHA.

♥ Work and school

FINAAALLLY!

No more lazing around.

And been reaaaally busy these days.

Had reporting just now, then straight away went for the interview and Alhamdulilah, I got it.

I'll be starting work on Thursday.

See you shoppers @ Ion! Hahaha I don't want to reveal where I'm working.

Bweekkkk! :P

And that aside, I have to apply for schools tomorrow and also submit my particulars for my job.

Eeeek busy busy week.

Baby.

I'm afraid once I start working I won't be able to visit you every week!):

And that's gonna really suck.

But I promise to pass all my letters to Kakak so at least you know you're still on my mind.

Gosh, I miss you babycakes.

Can I have our friendship back?

♥ Results

Haaaaaaai.
Today was the last day I'd ever wear my East View uniform.
Collected my results just now.
Okaaaay, I got 31 points. It's kind of a waste because my Maths pulled me down and I dropped Art. If not I could have done better.
But nothing can be undone and I'm not retaking, NO.
My results are the consequences of my lazy self lah.
I'm gonna be applying for either Hospitality/Tourism/Leisure and Travel/Early Childhood/Office skills.
Or maybe even Nursing @ Ite Simei, nearest to my house.


And tomorrow, reporting at MCYS!
Plus, searching for job.
Maybe finally, my life is falling into place.


And now I'd like to thank some people.
Firstly, Nabilah and Nisaa. 3GS.
Thanks for always pushing me to do better and stopping me from doing wrong and stupid things.
Thanks for studying with me during coaching and night studies.
Thanks for listening and thanks for everything.
Thanks for being such great friends.
And Nabilah, get well soon. Seeing you so weak and not your normal hyperself makes me worried. I hope you eat your bitter medicines please.


Eka and Irah. My chickies.
Always my huggables and kissables in school.
You girls always cheer me on to do better and always put a smile on my face.
You both are the cutest and thanks for the encouragement all these while.
Thanks for coming down and making me feel better just now.
Although we rarely spend time together now, I still treasure you both.
And I'm grateful to have you two as my friends.


LOVE YOU GIRLS.


And of course not forgetting the boys who also stood by me.
Khai, Katek, Mang and Shahril.
Even though after O'levels, Mang drifted away, I won't forget the moments that we were close.
And of course Shahril who tutored me Maths for a bit and tahan my slengerness.
And Khai who always scolded me for my own good and always asked me to go for classes.
And also Katek who advises me and is closest to me and knows my problems.


Guys and girls,
Thanks for being there for me all these while.
Thanks for completing my Secondary school life.
Without you guys, this year would have been dull and I'd probably quit halfway again without all your motivation, inspiration and scoldings.
Without realising, I have grown closer and closer to the lot of you.
I'm really grateful to have found wonderful friends.
And thanks, if not for you guys, I wouldn't have got even 31 points.

I hope that after this, we won't drift apart.
And I look forward to many more years of beautiful friendship with all of you.


And as I sat outside school and look around, I realise that almost everyone had their bestfriends with them.
I had my girls too, yes I did. But, one person wasn't there.
Shaa.

And my tears just came rolling.
I miss you Shaa. )':

♥ Hangovers

Gooood afternoon darlings.
Woke up to a thirsty throat and spinning headache.
Yes, hangover.
Momma and I just stuffed ourself with panadols to lessen the hangover, HAHAHA.
So yesterday was a drinking session with Momma and Didos at home.
Get back to that story later.


Before that, went to cousin Haikal's birthday party.
It was a nice family gathering. I had fun with games and getting fat.
Yeah I sure ate a hell lot of food.
At around 9.30pm, Momma, Dan and I had to leave abruptly and we left everyone wondering why we left early. Not the time yet to reveal my tagging I guess.
Such a pity we couldn't stay longer really.
So, I was almost late in reaching home. Got daddy to drive like Tokyo Drift.
Hahaha,and thank god I reached home on time.


And that's when Didos came over and later in the night, we began drinking with Momma a bottle of Scotch. And we fell asleep on the sofa like tiut little pigs.



All my friends are busy working.
But I'm not.
Lazing around at home is not that bad I guess, as I'm a freeloader :P
But I do want to start earning my own money.
Yes yes, will do soon!

Tomorrow is the release of O'level results!
Like, serious fucking shit, tomorrow is the day.
Haha I'm feeling more excited than scared.
I didn't study much so I guess a fail is expected but a pass is hoped for!
I can't wait to wear my uniform, see my friends and look at my juniors tomorrow.
Oh and not to forget, maybe get into a little fight with the guards for my hair colour.
Oh what joy! Can't wait!

For now, gonna stuff me self with more panadols because the head really hurts.
And Chai Chee's chicken rice is awaiting me! Thanks daddeyh.♥

♥ Flames to dust

"Flames to dust, lovers to friends. Why do all good things come to an end?"

Currently repeating the song over and over.

I've always believed in that song and always ask myself;

"Why do all good things come to an end?"

Can't they just stick around?

"It's best we stick as bffs because this way there won't be heartbreaks. And I promise I'll never leave you and be there for you."
How come I don't see you around anymore? I understand that you have your own life to lead.
But just so you know, sometimes I miss the times we have together.
And I cry, thinking about the old times.
Now is just different. Shaa's not around. The guys aren't close anymore. I can't go out at night anymore. Everyone's busy.

Sigh, I'll end that note with, I miss the boy I call, bff.


Come to think of it, I miss so many people.
As much I miss these people and think of them, do they miss me too?
And so tonight, perhaps a drinking session at home.
Have a nice day dear readers.

♥ Always missing you baby

Hello.
I don't even know if my blog has readers. It seems dead.
I guess my readers lost hope in me ever keeping a blog alive.
Yesterday, had my reporting with both my officers.
Naggy session on breaching. Because I have breached for 3 times in a month.
-________- And okay the talk did go into my head.
I thought that if I breach, going to prison wouldn't be so bad if for awhile.
I would bear with it and finish it once and for all, rather than this, for 15 months.
But, for me, there's also another possibility, RTC. And RTC will be like 3 years!?
Plus an additional year of tagging. Fuck lah, that will be worse right.
So, no more please. I don't want to go RTC, I will practically just die.
That's my last chance. I have so many more months to go. Man man cheh.


Oh, and I was discussing with my parents and boyfriend about my upcoming birthday.
And I reminded them of my license. Hehe.
So, a motorbike license is definitely a nono from them.
I guess I'm going for the car license and if I have extra money, I will take the bike license secretly :P Hehehehe.
So yes, boyfriend came over again last night, heh.
Hmm, I wonder how's my birthday this year?
Momma was planning on another drinking/karaoke party at my house.
I guess with boyfriend and my usual school friends.
Well, whatever happens, happens.

And so I'm missing my bestfriend, again.
Everyday I miss her lah, can say that.
And I guess my Facebook friends must be tired from me posting about missing her.
So I guess now I'll just let out in my blog. Clever not? Hehe.

Through painful times we're there for each other.

Through happy times and you're always there to take care of me, the older yet naive, rash and immature one.

We laugh and we cry together.
But now, I've lost her temporarily.
Imagine how my life changed when she suddenly left.
I had to adapt to a life of pure loneliness.
Because I was so used to her presence and we met almost the every minute we were awake.
I miss having her bringing me breakfast.
I miss watching her sleep while I get ready.
I miss having a partner in crime.
I miss having someone to sit in the buses and trains with.
I miss having someone who knows me so well.
I miss my bestfriend.
Every minute, every hour, everyday.

Going to visit her this weekend as per normal with my letters!
Can't wait!

♥ Old times, old friends

Good morning!
I've set my mind to find a job today.
Can't live penniless and just lazing around you know.
Sooooooo, I'm no longer single. After much thought, yeah.
So boyfriend came around to my place last night.
We watched movies and spent time together at home.
And so,today I have reporting @ MCYS, 4pm.
MALAS, MALAS, MALAS!
And after that I'll visit Nisaa on her first day @ Topshop.
And I'll try out at her place then.
Wish me luck.


And so I was browsing through my whole desktop and saw old pictures.
I miss the old times, my old friends and my old life.
I'm happy with what I have now.
But there's no harm missing right?
Let's start going down the list, I sure miss a whole lot of people.

My 17th Birthday 2010.

The process of getting me to the pit was fucking hard bcuz I swear I thought they were gonna sabo me. I was really thankful and grateful for Shaa and Tasha's effort for making my birthday a lovely one. Accompanied by great companions, including my mom.


We fight, we bitch, we have tiffs, we have egos and hers is huge.
I admit I was a bitch and a pain in her ass, but I wouldn't accept all fault alone.
But if she's willing to be my friend once again, I'd take all blame and apologise.
We would always make up after every fight, but I doubt this time she's coming back.
It's hard for me to admit, but I can't deny, I do miss Natasha Wiyana.
Because after everything we've went through, I can't just forget her.
She watched me grew too, besides Shaa and I know sometimes I sure can get out of hand.
I really do miss you and I'm sorry.


Our young and innocent flying high times.


And I still do miss our young foursome days.
Our dance practices, slacking for hours and just being there for each other.
But now, there's just 2.


Let's continue going down the list.

Arin Momo.
Someone I could call a very good friend and was there for me.
Always scolding and giving advices and we kept saying we'd never fall in love again.
But look now, he has a girlfriend! Hahaha and I have to say the same for myself.
I miss you.


Adiq.
He was part of my secondary school growing years with Shaa, Tasha and Ifaa.
A good friend I would say.
I would remember memories of Pasir Ris,As-Salihin and Play with him.
But as people grow, people change. I miss the way he was, but past is past.
I miss you.

Ben, the ex-boyfriend turned good friend and Maya times.
During the Maya days, I was working and everything just felt so carefree.
The word "enjoy" was stucked in my head.
But good things don't last.

Someone I miss so dearly as much as I miss Shaa.
Mohamed Hafeez / Skit.
My big brother, my bestfriend.
From 2008-Beginning 2010, he was always there for me.
He cared for me like a big brother would do and would always take me out.
Skit, Shaa and I have been through days and things that no one can imagine, together.
But feelings never grew of course, because it was a bond purely made out of siblings love.
I miss you so much Skittles. I'm sure Shaa does too. And I can't wait for your release.
I'm gonna hug you so tight!

Po-g and clan.
The days we would slack together, have drinking sessions and go to pubs on boring days.
The days where you guys randomly come to our neighbourhood to just see us.
It's a pity we drifted once I started school this year.
And I could still remember how cute you guys were trying to get me to cabut school.
I miss you guys.

We don't really hang out, but I do miss the fun we had on this day.
Yoyol, yoyol.

A group of friends I had cherished memories too.
Always up to no good and always having fun with them.
An adorable bunch that sadly drifted when I had school and they had NS.
I miss you guys.

A noisy and cute group of friends who loved teasing us.
I miss hanging out with these guys but it's just so hard now with tagging.
But I do hope that we'd get to hang out again one day.
I miss you guys.

Dinesh/Dincute.
An irritating busterd who is actually a nice person after all.
I miss Malam Raya where I had only these 2 but we still had fun together.
I wonder what has become of him now.
I miss you.

Chijmes.
The working days. Drinking sessions. Stupid games.
From night till the next afternoon.
Enjoyable days with them. And people that are caring and nice.
I miss you guys!

Joop.
A good friend to us.
He is like a bag of fun and always there to put smiles on our faces.
I miss you.


Okay I should stop already! Because I'm running late!
Hahaha, yours till the next update. xoxo.