♥ Don't you remember

When will I see you again, you left with no goodbye, not a single a word was said.

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness and a wandering eye and a heaviness in my head.

But don't you remember, don't you remember the reason you loved me before. Please remember me once more.

When was the last time you thought of me or have you completely erased me from your memory?

And, lately, I've been thinking about Moonboy a lot.

Yes, it's totally pointless now since it's too late.

But I can't help my thoughts. I keep thinking about him, keep missing him.

Keep thinking about how unfair it is that I can't remain even friends with him anymore.

And I guess, that's because his girlfriend is insecure as he had loved me before after all.

But, sigh, he's in love with her now right, I'm no longer in his heart so why worry, sigh.

He had since then, deleted me off Facebook, unfollowed me on Twitter, and deleted my pictures and number. For someone who used to love me and was always there for me, I took this change quite harshly at first.  But, he told me to understand his girlfriend's feelings, jealousy and insecurity. And well, I tried. I backed off. But sometimes, I just can't help but still call him whenever I get a little too drunk, because that's just how it used to be. He would listen to my endless yapping till I feel tired enough. But he never answers my calls anymore. And this, I should understand too.

I understand everything. But I just at least wished that he didn't have to disappear totally from my life like this. He said that he would forever love me, even if just as a friend. What happened to that? I knew it, I knew that forever didn't exist. I just miss him. Him asking, how my day went, telling me about his day, cursing each other, and how he'd always laugh at my slengerness. All that's gone. And so is our friendship I guess. I sent him a long text to tell him how I feel about him being gone, but even that went unanswered. He's still in contact with others, except me. It's as though it's my fault that he have loved me before. I'll just have to get used to this I guess. I'm not surprised if I get their wedding invitation soon enough, because they look quite serious together. And I know he's not one to kid around in a relationship and I can tell how much he loves her now. In this, I have lost a very good friend..................... But it's alright.

I just hope maybe one day I'll get to meet him again,just to give him a big friendly hug,wish him a final goodbye, and then we'll lead our separate lives. 

Insya' Allah.

And this counts as the 5th post of you.