♥ To give up or not

Some say, give up. Some say, go all out and get him.

I..........don't know.

I feel like I'm wooing the guy here.

He shows little interest. Or sometimes no interest at all.

He doesn't lead me on, he doesn't give me any hopes at all of us being together.

So why am I so affected? 

I.......have no idea. Yes, maybe it was sweet at first, but now there's like, nothing.

But I think, even if this leads to nothing, I just want to be there for him and care for him as a friend would. 

I thought I could act like normal when I saw him last night.

But many a times, I tried to avoid his gaze. And when he was finally beside me, dancing as he teased, I gave my hand to his face. Why......... I'm supposed to be okay with it what. I was okay with it already!

But when I saw him terus, piak in the face for me. Sigh, then the next day he said that I action with him. I missed him yet, I did that. Being all egoistic.

I told him that I won't be that way his next bookout. 

Well, but what I can say is, me and him's impossible.

He'll never fall for me.

He was a  long time crush, he is a friend now and we would always be.

Standard lah aku, yang aku nak selalu, tak dapat.

Oh what's new.