♥ Died

I always fall for the wrong people.

I always get left for another girl.

I always tend to ignore the ones who actually love me.

I don't literally and practically ignore, I just don't share the same feelings.

I always fall for the ones, who will eventually just leave me shattered and broken.

Why ah?

Why?

When will the feelings ever be mutual?

I don't believe in cyber love anymore.

Maybe it is possible but........ nah.

I just don't have enough confidence to meet anybody that I know from the Internet.

I don't have the prettiest face, the hottest body and all.

Guys tend to expect anyway.

I don't have the cleanest face.

I need make up to make me feel at least presentable.

I'm too shy.

I can't let guys look too long at my face, makes me feel so insecure.

I've been left and hurt too many times, I just tend to already have the thinking that every guy that comes along will just only break my heart.

So, who will change this?

And when?

Doubt it will be anytime soon.

And I'm well, perfectly fine with that. I think.

Yes, I get lonely when I see my bestgirls with partners of their own.

But I guess I'm better off this way, how I've always been, since ever.

This way, the solo way.

I guess I just got used to it very much, I can't see myself with anyone, ever.

I can't imagine bringing my boyfriend to meet my friends.

I definitely won't know how to give my time.

I'm so used to being single.

I really can't imagine being attached.

It would be.......a big change.

So I guess the reason for my "no commitment" in boys is just cuz, I'm still not ready. Even though I get lonely.