♥ Stop

Hi.

Maybe I should stop filling my head with stupid thoughts, but I guess that's only because I don't get your full assurance that you won't break my heart.

But I guess,what's life or love without risks.

I chose to do this, so I chose to risk my heart of a heartbreak.

I'm not anybody's idea of a perfect girlfriend/wife.

I have tattoos, I have a past of my own which I have left, I still drink, I still party, I meet up with my friends often that I don't have time to date, I love to act like a boy, I burp and fart whenever I feel like it. I........ just am not. I do not have good skin condition. I make lame jokes. I am half deaf. I have a very big tummy where there have been people who have mistaken it for pregnant. I am forgetful and my friends call me slenger. I do not come from a well-to-do family. I am an irritant. If I like you, I get insecure easily. I assume a lot. I have had my fair share of bad experiences. 

I am insecure with myself, yes. But with the support of friends around me and of course much, nagging, I am learning to love myself. 

I shall leave it to fate. If it's meant to be, it will be. Maybe with you, or not with you.

Maybe with someone else? I have no idea what my future have in store for me.

Who does anyway -.-"

So, I shall tell myself to stop thinking too much.

There's no point, I'm just gonna irritate the other party.

I'm not afraid of you being unfaithful, I'm just afraid of never being good enough.

So so so so, 

WHERE MY PARTY PEOPLE AT!?

Heh heh heh ^^v

Sidetrack, I do wonder sometimes, when will be the day I really and finally decide to wear the tudung.

That would be one of the biggest changes of my life.

It would mean change of lifestyle, change of dressing and change of most things in life.

I can't say it would be anytime soon, but Insya Allah, before I leave this world.

Goodnight sweethearts ♥